Monday, February 19, 2007 ; The once a year..

Not tampines mall alone I guess...It must have been every golden village or shud I say every movie place in singapore is close on chinese new year. And what pisses me off is that we malay's basically had nothing to do...EXCEPT!!!! going to east coast, or either something park-ish...(got that kind of word is it?) and yes for the straight 2 days on sat and sunday, I went to east coast...Saturday was with babi bunc...But it went kinda late...eheh around 9 then we reach? yah and after that she spent n hernight at my home from 12 to 145 I think...Am I right?

On sunday, my mum said that aan is going to drive and take us around singapore...My first sis, Bro in law and my nephew came to my house first. And of course, I brought ahlyn along too...As you all will know, ahlyn is very lazy. So we decided to fetch her from her house instead...Two CARS SOMEMORE!! hehe Its like shes the president kene escort plak!! Didnt do much...All we do was go to east coast at around 6 plus and had our so called lunch and dinner there rite? It was bloody pack I tell you...I ordered chicken chop for ahlyn. And seafood spaghetti for mine. I ordered around 645. I get it?

Nearly 730...tell me is that pack or not? tell me is that worth fighting for?(mcm matrix plak aku ni hehe) And the seafood spaghetti was normal..nuthing special...My mums spaghetti goreng is much more special...And Its 5 bucks for that awfully sikit seafood spaghetti!! Damn....My journey ends with a smile and the last destination was at airport around 1 plus nearly 2... And Im dead tired with laughs and foods...haha...got to go...

Ps. Im too lazy to elaborate on what really2 happen after the east coast eating place..haha...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 10:39:00 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007 ; god...

Well I didnt get to see her... at the hospital...She just bersalin...the name of the child is armanshah...very cute...saw the photos today...didnt expect that she bersalin so fast. Suddenly I was in a no mood after what Ive heard from my 3rd sister that she gets to see her..damn...Im not me now...didnt expect anything...thats all for today.. bye

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:13:00 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007 ; Man...

Man...I didnt know that school will be a pain in the ass...haha...Even tho frens are there...But still, its pain in the ass...I want school to end fast...So I can have alot of sleeps ahah...Anyway to three of you joining the butterfactory competition, Good luck!! ok I think thats all I want to update...I have no freaking idea what to update actually ahha...lame...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 3:10:00 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007 ; Why...

Its sad to see that when I woke up today feeling Ive lost someone that I miss so much...Seriously...I woke up at nine today...have to to buy eggs for my mum...After that I went to my room...I was thinking...seriously and I wanna know why am I crying now typing this posts. And I wanna know why Am I crying just now...Its like you wake up to a new world suddenly..Its like your timetable has change...And yes it does...Its really sad...

Oh yah not forgetting I went to meet Dphatians yesterday...Hhaha I know its a very long time ever since I met up with them...anyway Happy bday neya, frendy,aisha,ifah!! yeah!! and tanks for inviting me!! ehhe I feel so happy yesterday...tanks guys!!! and you guys rock my life....I dont know what to do if I dont have you all. And and and I love you guys...See you guys on monday!!!

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 9:06:00 AM

Saturday, February 10, 2007 ; ughhh

I didnt feel anything from u at all...Ever since I wanna make my comeback to you...I didnt feel the sincereness that u gave to me...YOU didnt even tell me whats wrong with me when I asked you...YOU WERE ALWAYS LIKE THAT!!! IM SICK OF IT!!!...Now its up to you...Im really loving you so much...And its sad to hear from you that u feel like u lost me...I do too...I feel like I lost you years ago...And I was upsad that day...I called you...But all you can say was you have no mood...damn...and you even have the cheek to ask the guy I hate...Damn... Its up to you...You ask me to do my job rite? I think you saw it...in front of your eyes some more...If I didnt do my job, I would not even call u that day...and ask are u okay and everything...Even tho that day u make me a lil piss on monday...And suddenly you update your blog feeling lyka rag? My fault? Rag as in? who made you feel this way? If its me then im totally sorry......

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:37:00 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007 ; Damn...

I thought I can really make my mind easy by talking to you just now...Your '' I miss you too" it didnt catch my heart just now...Its like you said it without no feelings at all...And you didnt even tell what is wrong yourself to me...You just said no mood..After that you were asking me is Khai lontong there? Tell me how would you feel If you are in my shoes?

Thats why I was not in the mood after that...And I rather hang up on the "few sentences conversation" I guess you were not in the mood..Nvm...Let's have it your way now...Anything on your mind, Just rilex...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:06:00 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007 ; Was kinda...

I was kinda I surprise I pass my shuttle run..haha like duh I took it like what? 3 times? haha..The 2.4 km run pulak mcm WTF!! 1st round I went okay...But when It came to my 3 round, gua sudah pancit liao...haha I was tired and I had something on my mind thats why. That was yesterday btw...

I woke up this morning at 645...My sis woke me up to school...Hahah terkejut sekejap...And yesterday she woke me up at 6!!! WOW! tanks sis!! I didnt do much for the past days..Its like after school go home...Or rather, lepak sorang..yes im that pathetic.

I realise Dphat is going somewhere..Good for you guys..I feel kinda lost recently...But its all good...I really hope I can come down...I wanna see everybody so badly. I wanna dance back..And please its not bcos of the performance then I wanna come back eh...Its like for a month I have never laid my hands and moves to dance!! And I wanna dance...BADLY!!

AND!! haha one of my school mates asked me to join malay dance cos she saw me at DANCEFLOOR!! haha I was like...hmmm haha I dont know what to say...But see first lah ok dear D? haha Can I come when u all perform? Can I dance? Can I learn all the steps? Can I give steps? Can I not create trouble anymore? Can I be myself when I see you all? Can I seriously feel the love of the warthm hug and kisses you all gave? Can I not be irritating? Can I be strong? Can eve not suffer anymore about love? Can izhan not be angry at me cos im delaying his earpierces? Can I see AKID in school? Can amir rest himself first? Can I have all this back? Can I come back? Can I see the wanderers? Can I see anto and fadz not breaking up with their relationships? Can I see fad with a pure smile instead of fakes? Cos he is sad and I know.

Can I break back? Can I see noor? Can I be like a gay when I come and see dphats and the wanderers? ahha...Can I see abang with his Gf being to normal? Can I see frendy being irritating with his towel? Can I salam AKID with the muthafucker thingy? Can I see neya perform? Can I see ayun and his stupid antics which I love? Can I see anto and fadz loving me back? Can I miss you all? Can I see you all buying vitasoy at 7 eleven then lepak-ing at telepark? Can I be really2 crazy with AFDZAL AND FYK? Can I take pictures with you all? Can you all not be angry at me If I had made a mistake last time? Can YOU all forgive me? Can I? Can I? Sorry If I left out someone....

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 12:06:00 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007 ; Hehe

I found myself very weird sometimes...I sometimes can be irritatin or shud I say I am haha I find myself very weak and oways trynna pull myself up without or with frens help. And sometimes...My semangat is only like 2 minit semangat...hhaah get it? Oh fuck! I just remembered!!! I got napfa TOMMOROW!! Its like The big WTF siak! Obviously, Im very lazy to do napfa...But I cant cancel or just pretend to be sick or not come tommorow...Cos If i did not take it, I will be awarded with a fucking 5 months BMT FOR NS!!! So yah I think I overreacted a lil bit here. Nevermind, I got to wake up early tommorow like 6? Damn siak...And Im scared I cant wake. Cos my mum is at my sis house and left with me and my irritating sister only...LIKE AS IF SHE CAN WAKE UP AT 6!! God!!! Damn.....Okay now im stress haha...Will update again tommorow after NAPFA!!! hehe bye bye guys!!

*ps Im missing allah,my bestest fren zinky,Ahlyn,my sisters,Dphats, MY old crew,ahmin,The wanderers, I wish I have all this back....

Sob....And I did cry just now about them..Sorry to cried over small things...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 12:37:00 AM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007 ;

Have you all sometimes think that you wanna be successful but u are god damn lazy? Well thats pathetically me now. I've plan so many things that I wanna do after school ends on march..I really wanna take my bike and car lisence...I needed it...And I need a full time job before going to Ns...I wanna earn alot...So by the time im 30, 35 40 perhaps? Im oready having a gd life with my kids and wife...Oh rather live alone. I have oways have this in mind...I wanted to build my own house at the open sea...And live alone with only a cat...And have a car on your own...And have your own parties and invite as many friends as you want...No point talking now...Cause I know that now, I gotta work hard... I got to concerntrate on much more important things...And after school ends on march 16, I really2 wanna come back to D'phat like I use to...I really miss them...I still wanna dance you know!!! I still have my own life to live with you know!! hahakz...Give me views aite...Eh people!! I cant force you all to tag my board but hey...Please its like no use siak putting tagboard and nobody tags...Ive been like fucking desperate person asking pple to tag sak seriously...hehe...Amir and everybody!! please tag!!! im bored!!!!!!!

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:02:00 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007 ; Sorry

First off, to D'phats. I have been missing for weeks. Im sorry about that. Secondly for all the big and smally mistakes of mine, please forgive me. And sorry once again. Eventho I dont know what happened 4 the past weeks, I really still wanna say sorry. And im still feeling guilty now. Anyway for wat reason I say sorry here and not face 2 face with you all? Cos Im scared and of cos aku ni ego juga. heehe. Mepek kan aku? Aku tahu? hehe. And im sorry...please if u all dphatians read it oready, please tag...please...please...IM not asking much but just a tag at my board wud be a nice thing to do...seriously....sorry And I just realise that im not fair. Im fucking unfair to you all...I thank god for this...God made me realise now...tanks allah...And im sincerely sorry to everyone...im just too afraid to come down practice once again...Im afraid... Its like im at fault gitu...But dont worry...Once im not sick and once im ok oready, and have money and have courage to face u all back, then I will come...Cos im rather bz now with new work....sorry....once again. AND HAPPY BDAY ONE MORE TIME TO NEYA!!! WOOHOO!!! love frazze

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:16:00 AM