Thursday, December 30, 2004 ; The New Year

2004. Amazing year. Great adventures. The year where I graduated. The year I met new people. The year where sadness grows. The year where I created this blog. The year where I and G-niuz Created the Crew Prophat Souljahz. The Year I fought With Zinky...And frens back. Now Rapat as ever.

The year Im in love..with stupid ppl....haha no lah...kiddin. The year of mischief. The year of laughter. The year of happiness. The year...I like YOU. And CARED ABT YOU.But it nvr came true...haha hope it will came true. The year where natural disasters came...and destroyed thousand of houses and kill thousands of ppl. The YEAR WHERE I PERFORM...AND IM PERFORMIN TOMMOROW. AND IM PERFORMIN FOR YOU!!

The year of IDOLS, The year of hip hop fest tat sucks hard. ahah anyway, I care for alot of people this year. The year of new hip hop arises. The year...and the last month tat i know YOU... This year Is so so special. Thanks...The year that taufik was like a KING. ahha. Hope next year is much more better...Hope YOU will know how I truly treasure YOU and care so MUCH ABT YOU...The year that I start rappin. The year I found my medicine. The year I Found YOU. The year where I don't feel hari raya at all. The year I keep my goatee. And still growing.

The year that I turned 18!! The year where Graduation Party was held. There's so many. But the most unforgettable memories is at Graduation Nite. It was like so so full of sadness. The year where Me and Ma sis became like frens. The year she watches me perform LIVE at TOA PAYOH. And much much more things. The year where I was single for nine months. The year where I WILL MISS ALL OF YOU. FRENS,FAMILIES,BEST FRENS, CLOSE FREN.

Take Care. And may God Bless You.

Insyallah.

From Frazze.

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 9:06:00 PM

; Tsunami.

They are called...Killer Waves...or worse...Tsunami...they kill abt thousands of people in other countries. Now, Im like a reporter. But seriously, I PITY THEM ALOT. Yeah!!. I think I will help them...by sendin my clothes there (WAH BAIK SEH JA'FARISH. KATA ANGEL!!...hehehe)...cause my bro-in-law say can. Anyway, God pls...take care of my friends,bestfrens,my crew,my closest fren ida, YOU. family...but go ahead kill my teachers...ahaha nah kiddin...

Ok it's time for...dialogue time!! Me and somebody.

Somebody:ahah from Jap to sam...x2

Me:FUCK YOU! dlm hati...Dunt wanna say tat yet.

Somebody: Eh buat beat ayob.

Ayob:!$#%#^&&^*&*&

Somebody:(Following the beat) then sing "From Jap To Sam" twice I think.

Me:Points middle Finger

Me:Stares at him.

Somebody:(Coming Towards Me)

Me:(Long STARES)

Somebody:Sorry arh...sorry arh main2 je...

Me:STILL STARING.

Somebody:Asked for lo-5 forgive and forget.

Me:STILL STARING

Me: (put hand out)

I swear the god. I WAS FREAKING MAD...NOT JUST CAUSE OF THAT...CAUSE OF SOME PROBLEMS THAT I KEEP IN MIND. AND NOT TELLING PPL.SAM IS THE SHORT FORM. LONG FORM IS SAMPAH. FUCKER TUL!!! Anyway, Im so so damn tired. The reheasal was okay...but the stage outside was like so so small...30 thousand MY FOOT...but can lah.anyway, IF ya wanna help this ppl at phuket...pls tag...i oso wanna help....and IDA MY CLOSEST FREN...CANCEL THE CHALET PLS....NOW IM GETTIN SCARED. it has reached AFRIKA...WAT IF IT REACH SINGAPORE...I HOPE IT WONT. *TOUCHWOOD* ANYWAY, tomorrow practise then go to changi I think. WAH!! I CARE ABT PPL....BUT MYSELF...I DUNT CARE...NVM...I DUNT CARE ABT LIFE ANYWAY...hhaha SIAO!! oklah gonna go I think bye bye!!

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:55:00 AM

Tuesday, December 28, 2004 ; Worried

Please take care of YOUrself. Im so afraid of losing YOU. And not chattin with you anymore. Please, Don't go to any beaches. Even if it is important. Just Don't Go. Please...I care abt you a lot. Im just so so afraid...Just so damn afraid. You ask me not to worry abt you. YAH RITE!! YOU like to merayap. Who knows YOU might go to tha beach. Just don't go. IM so afraid of not seeing you update your blog and not going online at MSN anymore.

Zinky Ma best bud. You went to have a picnic with ya aunt on monday. I was realy damn worried. Luckily I called. Ya sis says that you're sleepin. So yeah. THANK GOD. JUST TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF MAN!! I Don't wanna lose you as well!! DON'T GO TO ANY BEACHES AITE??

Ida, my closest sweetest friend ever.

Please cancel ya chalet. For tha sake of me. I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU OSO!! YOU ARE SO IMPORTANT. But SHE'S much more important. ahahah. Pls cancel it ok PLEASE. PLEASE...IF YA WANNA HAVE have fun, go somewhere esle. If you still want to have that chalet, WAIT UNTIL THERE'S NO MORE NEWS ABOUT THAT FREAKY TSUNAMI!! I just known you this year. But I feel like I have known you more then a year. So pls pity me and pls cancel tha chalet.

To Prophat,

PLEASE,PLEASE,PLEASE. Don't go to any beach that exist in singapore. HAM!! ya special to me in the crew. SO PLEASE DONT GO TO THA BEACH!! REMIND EVERYBODY AITE??

If you ALL I MENTION ABOVE, Dont care abt me, GO AHEAD and go to the beach. HERE I AM BEING IN SORROWS again and you all JUST HECK CARE! IM just so afraid to lose all of you, So please, If ya care, please listen to me. Im not forcing you all to listen to me but, I want you all to be safe. I don't want to see people gone just like that. And please! YOU. take care aite? online ok??

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 11:30:00 AM

Monday, December 27, 2004 ; Today.

Just woke up from a really2 weird dream. It was kinda freaky I guess. I dreamt abt YOU. We went to this counseling session. And YOU were very tall. Really. It was a weird dream. But I was happy. Cause YOU were there...I dont know why I was there. There's SO many rooms. Each belong to one person. And I was the new person inside that counseling session.

Then got one day. Where everybody was telecast over television. And I was not in!! And then I saw YOU. You were wearing blue long sleeve t-shirt.Weird huh? Anyway... Gonna Go practise after this...THIS WEDNESDAY REHEARSAL...SO NERVOUS!!

Dunt care arh. JUST HOPE YOU COME DOWN. YA the only want I need. Ya make me happy. Thanks again. hhahah weird dream it is. I ain't gonna let YA go. Anyway, Thanks....

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 12:16:00 PM

Sunday, December 26, 2004 ; Lagi Skali...

Lagi Skali practise. Tomorrow oso practise but add another two more new comers. Wed rehearsal...Kinda nervous. Break forze crew will be there I think. I hope I will be the one who stand out.heheh

Hope medicine can go. I REALLY HOPE SO. Anyway, just now, go prac AGAIN. and then went home at 8:45. Weird timing rite? yeah yeah I know. Weird really. Took bas 81 then went to interchange. Then walk to the bas 18 then Got this indonesian MAIDS!!...SO FREAKY SIAH.

Maid 1: opps sorri
Me: That's ok
She bump into me.
Maid 2: How much tat drink? (Indonesian Way Of Talkin)
Maid 1: 50 cent.
Maid 2: Arh? What?
Maid 1: 50 cent lah (giggles)
Me: ohh my god, SO UGLY...AND SO OLD AND FAT. Oh well, they serve ppl. So nvm.

I wanted to vomit...But I pity her. So yeah...Bas 18 came. Went to the back row then seated. That bas full of freaks siah...I was like walkin to the back, Everybody some sort of turned to me..like Im some murderer like that. Wat the heck...Then Got home...Open the door then BAMP! nobody's at home...

I was like...many seh drg pergi? Nvm...then I go bath..kinda freaky ya know...if nobody's at home. Switched on the comp then saw medicine...WAH SO HAPPI....hehe thanks. until now... aha. ok then toodles

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 10:39:00 PM

; Qualities

I have all the qualities to be a Gd man...Gd boy maybe. NOT JERKS. Anyway, I go thru the same routine today...Go practise again...then...Go to interchange with Izam cos he wanna go toilet..WAT THE HECK RITE?

HEHEHE. After tat, we took the bus 28 and talk crap in the bus. He drop near Tampines CC. Then took 17 to meet his lady. Then I was alone in tha bus. Then ada budak "MAT RIP". I was so so so Irritated by them...they surround me...And I was like apa siak ni.

Me: Siak tul ni budak2
MatRip No 1: Hey aku nak beli contact lens arh brape arh?
MatRip No 2: Jgn Beli kat geylang mahal. Lepas Balik Beli arh.
MatRip No 3: SIAK ARH BALIK BELI. LAMBAT SIAK BALIK NANTI!!
Me: Ala Siak arh. eeee Kental SIAL!!

I swear they were using tamil languages. Press the bell and wanna go down the bus. They were like opps Sorry...ahah yeah rite. Went To Zinky's again. Feelin like fucked up again. then chill at his house. Nothin much, Played games only...then talk abt her's and he was kinda feel fucked up oso. ahah So SAME AND NEGATIVE ATTITUDE LAGI.

Got home at 9:50 I think...then ate and then straight to the comp...happy...FEELED HAPPY AGAIN twice in ma life. Until now. Im so so so need a rest rite now...So anyway, bye bye. Toddles....Phuckin Tired. Bye

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:41:00 AM

Saturday, December 25, 2004 ; Expensively Crafted

I was Expensively Crafted By god...nah...All I did today....Was practisin For Countdown 2005 At Boon Lay. So yeah...Here I come Countdown 2005. Well, So how? Still feel like shit...So nobody IS GONNA ASK ME WHY? ARGH!! NVM...Hope Tat U Will Come Down...When I Perform.

Best nyer at last...Chatted for so long at msn...then feeled relieve. Thanks....Anyway, I got home ard 11 just now...Chilled at Zinky's till 10 plus...and after tat...got home. I start practise just now at 1 plus till 5. Then head to zinky's. Kinda bored though but...hehe wat to do...nobody's at his home.

Feel kinda crazy wen I was with him at his home...Crack silly jokes...hahaha Watched HAPPY FISH RITE? ahah. Anyway then, Got home and keep wishin things...MSN IS MA MEDICINE. You ARE MA MEDICINE...hahah remember? hehehe until now im still on tha net...Still chattin with shah.

But felt weird rite now, Been hearin awkard sounds...Scary siak. Been waitin for AAN'S ARRIVAL....FROM JUST NOW HAVE'NT COME HOME. NEXT WEDNESDAY...rehearsal at boon lay...Who wanna Come down....just go ok? take MRT then stop at boon lay. There will oso be some other Hip hop acts I think...Got Bfc I think...

Anyway, Gonna Stay online till 3:30 am I think. THANKS FOR MAKIN ME HAPPY....

Cheerios And Ay Dios.
Frazze Of Psz
Signing Out

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:39:00 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004 ;

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back It's like a whirlwind inside of my head It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within It's like the face inside is right.

Im Feelin like tha above rite now...shit rite? Sometimes I wish life would end early for me. As early as possible. Cause I can't change. No matter What. I can't be that person...

I just hate life rite now...I suffered many times abt love...I really dont wanna love anymore...Im afraid of being in love again. I really am...But I dont know anymore....I feel like dyin...

Love Is Just A Deep Memory, Im Afraid Of Being In love, And Being Hurt. Life Has No Meaning For EveryThing Is Just A Dream, I Woke Up In The Morning And Realise It Was All Real. Frazze

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:29:00 PM