Monday, October 23, 2006 ; Settling in??

Just settle in my new house...but this year this day. ive been sad. very sad, very depressed, very pressurize...problems getting hard to control..im sick, i feel like dying...i want to be stronger...god, pls...gave me the strength...all i can do is just pray very hard just to succeed in life and most in family...I cant talk...I cant feel...Life is gone, day by day...Joy? just a min...Sadness?? 4ever in life.

I dont know...I dont know...I really dont know...Can I run from all this? Until when?? Until when can i take it?? I have no freaking idea...Hari raya?? I seriously dont feel it at all this year...Sadness overwhelmed me too much...But im still hanging on for wats left...

New house?? Happy...but too overwhelmed by sadness..What for if u live in a new brand house, fully renovated, but ure not happy at all bcos of your family conditions? Correct? Well, all i can say now, is just...to hang on...and just wait 4 something miracle to happen.

I would like to wish selamat hari raya to all muslims out there...If u pass by my blog, and have e same or some other problems, i will be glad to help u out...adios.

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 8:26:00 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006 ; Gone Away...

Time is passing by, tickin tocking, GONE AWAY, feeling somethings amiss....bullet enters the brain, torturing my life...the swept away life...gone....damn, i nvr aware of it...

I tell you just to pray for me and move onYou tell me what you feel for me is too strongAnd you been cryin' up for me for so longAnd even though it's right I'm feeling so wrongAnd now you got me acting like I didn't know youI'm not gonna be around here so I cant control youBut I can only tell you what I wanna show youI'm your love but you can find someone better for you.

damn....am i crying? i dunt know...blank yupp...as for now....i just wanna rilex....my mind is still.......THINKING deeply...

tell me ya thoughts...... gone away

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 3:00:00 AM