Friday, January 26, 2007 ; Quite so...

Ok let me start this...My hands have been very itchy to update..tapi tk terupdate2 okok...Firstly im sorry to create a ruckus between you guys...Im sorry...But hey bukan pasal korang pun..pasal orang lain...So I hope in the future, Jangan lah terase ok? But seriously im very sorry...

Anyway, good luck for the performance on the 27th you guys! I LOVE AND MISS YOU GUYS!!! I LOVE DPHATIANS!!!And im sorry for creating the ruckus...seriously...I really hope I can still hangout with you guys...dance and be crazy...But I guess I have been missing alot rite?

and and and...I got to get this fever out of my body seriously...Cos Iv been suffering for like wat? A full week? And now wat? My throat is getting worse? This is the worst cough and throat pain ever in history sak! I get silver award for it some more...Who awarded it to me? Me lah...hehe okok lame....heheh anyway I love you all DPHATS!!

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 9:19:00 PM

Saturday, January 20, 2007 ; Fuck

Tanks guys for not replying my msgs...Tanks alot...I msg u all very sincerely...But like wat? 2 or 3 person reply back? Im not expecting much...But think arh...Im trying the best I could to ask you all...Wats the plan and all tat...Im seriously pissed off..And im sorry for being piss about such a small thing...But try to imagine, msging like wat? 8 person? 10? and not even get a reply? except for like one or 2 persons? damn...But nvm... Anyway, I wont be coming down to dance practice anymore...I think...Cos nak step Missing In Action je...hehe well, lets see about that...I really2 wanna go my own way...I dont know why...Aiyoh I keep tinking about stupid things tau...Nvm2 must chill and learn to rilex..... Swayze, Frazze

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:26:00 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007 ; Clueless...

When can my friends be nice to me? When can Ifah heal herself? When can I be my normal self? When will amir stop having his chest pain? When will my group be clear of themselves? When will my sickness be gone? When can shazlyn not be sad? When can my life grab a hold of itself? When can I be strong?

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 1:26:00 AM

Monday, January 08, 2007 ; Hmmmm

I just realise that handsome, pretty guys,ladies. They get alot of attention than people that are average looking.....But its the fact..Im not trynna say im jealous...Its what I observe for all these years with beautiful friends...But beautiful face must comes with a good heart too...

As you can see ....actress and actors....They are either pretty,handsome,or just plain funny...I dont even know why im updating about this haha. But I just wanna know...Why do they get attention? I want the answer...Can I be handsome one day? But still be myself? After Ns perhaps? Nah...

Im grateful with what I have now...I dont wanna change anything..except for my teeth...And I got to slim down for sure...I wanna look smart... I wanna have clear skin. I wanna have straight teeth.

Oh yah...One more thing...to those who self-proclaim that they are pretty and handsome...pls...and pls...Get A LIFE....span>

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 4:35:00 PM

Saturday, January 06, 2007 ; Was fine...

I was fine yesterday....Yes we did went to jurong to go swimming...Only Fadz,Amir,Anto,Me,Izhan...We had fun...not for me...For info, All the laughters I had yesterday was just a fake one...Cos I know im still alone even tho I have you all...I did laugh yes...But I dunt seem to be happy...I dont even know why...I had you all...but...its unexplainable on how im feeling now...im still lost...Im loving everyone...Is it normal for a 20 year old guy turning 21 this year to experience this type of things? I dont know....TO D'phatians, Im no hiding anything...SOrry I just have to let it out in my blog..I just feel somebody is hiding something...And im confused...If there's nobody hiding anything..Then its ok...I maybe be at the wrong block address...and and and...im not self proclaiming that my problem is the most biggest in the world...no....Im saying out everything only..Dont get it wrong..Orang kat luar lebih byk problem...ok gotta go...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:56:00 AM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007 ; let me see....

I wish I could break out of the prison that im staying in now. I wish I could be strong like izhan...He inspired me for being very2 strong for the group and been very2 strong for himself... Here's a lil Something For D'phatians... What Happen...? Are You Crying..? If You Are... Let Me Cry With You Let Me Lend You My Shoulders To Cry On. Let Me Be The One To Cool You Down Let ME Hold You Tight Treating You Rite Seriously I need to improve on my poem writing hehe. Cause I think I still suck...haha. Anyway, Let me bring this out. To you...Nur Shazlyn, My dear...Read this. Im feeling this way I feel that now, I dont have you anymore. Maybe the day that we spent with each other now is lesser. I miss you. Should I let you go? Cause I dont feel love anymore. For what I see, Im like making you cry everyday. Let me see you be happy and let me see you smile, Let me cry,let me have sorrows. I will be okay one fine day. Im loving everything about you. I really dont wanna let it go. Let's see what happen, Let's see the future.... Thats how I feel...Sorry...I have to put this no matter what...sorry Im really sorry...

(NAMEOFAUTHOR) TOTALLY RANTED at 2:27:00 AM